us. :): May 2005

back together again

yayy!! official member of B(S)C. hahaha
the rest of you hurry!! =))

heys..havent been online for quite a while..anyway, it's my first week of school. i'm enjoying it very much. i've made some nice friends. think i'll have a good time in poly. my timetable's okie. i end at 6 on tuesdays to fridays while i only have a tutorial from 12 to 2 on monday. yups.. this week's only lects, so it's more slack.. but there's homework alr. and some things are quite complicating.. i'm taking chem mixed with bio and fnn. it's mind boggling and when you get home, you're practically braindead. my lecturers are okie.. i quite like my cp..my class has 27 ppl.. mainly gals only 3 guys.. quite different from sec school. *sigh.feel as if i'm not spending enough time with God. i feel so faraway.. but school's good in a way, it distracts me from everything else. i heard that ccc is gonna have a welcome tea next wed.. i think i'll just go.heh. yups.. so think i'm joining campus crusade alr. i kind of miss church when i'm at school.. most of my frens are non christians.. and it feels weird. and most of them speak chinese.. and then i answer em in english..haha. it's weird.. just gotta get used to it.yayy, ethel's getting baptised in 2 days time! (: so happy for ya. hmms.. miss my sec school class n all the havoc we created...*sigh.oh.. i'm taking a maths and stats module!! i thought i wont need to.. but have.. it's like amaths. all the integration and differentiation again. haha. oh wells.. okies. have to go do my PIPC stuff. you gals take good care of yourselves kaes? n continue to let God teach you each day. seeya. love you gals so much.
love, min.

i've got english test tml. i'm so scared!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so scared till i'm on the verge of crying.
its really bad. i dont see how i can be actually blogging and not revising. stupid me. this is so bad. =(( sigh. then again no point worrying. all i can do is to pray.
but suddenly i think that i am not doing anything, why should i deserve it.
soudns so cliche. but yeah its like true.
i only turn to God when i need help.
its just so wrong.

hey yall. havent been posting at all. sorry ah. cos been caught up with work.. i dun feel that busy, tho im stressed out of my wits. but other things are bothering me. havent had any training. its making me feel super unfit. cos altho i traing myself.i never push myself hard enough. i think im on a self enforced ban cos i havent touched my guitar nor my hockey stick for quite a while. school's fine. i love my class. full of crappy people who love running in the morning in the rain. ((: haha. the hockey team has been rather divided. this has been bothering me abit.. but yeah. i feel that nothing drives me to be more friendly to them cos they seem happy in their clique. yupp. i wonder how u all are? when's our dg outing gonna be? ((: my exams are coming soon. so gotta mugg. whee. i actually sound happy. u know these few days got alot of people who wanna talk to me. and i just feel bad ignoring them cos thats what i do most of the time till my mood swings past. been having an anti social mood. i dunno. i feel more detached from church than ever. i mean yeah, i serve in all the commitees and stuff.. but i feel like i'm not contributing much to any of them. its a bad feeling yeah.. thinking whether i should start blogging again. hmm. we'll see. so much on my mind sometimes i think i might explode. oh well. seems like i need some sort of revival in my own life. let's hope the sisters retreat would help me in that area. (: haha. hello sunshine
ok. another flood of thoughts. my friend was telling me about the situation in her cca... there's this girl badmouthing her because she's gonna be the next leader.my friend who's gonna be president was also saying that she's feeling the tension and stress of becoming the next president cos she's not 'in' in a sense. was just thinking wouldn't it be easier if cca was just another activity to enjoy.. and playing hockey or anything else were a passion, instead of including politics into the picture making everyone so divided and competitive, if u can't trust ur own team then how are we gonna stand together when the going gets tough?
just a thought. yupp. things happen. and i wanna be a tracker.. and run away from all the problems rather than face it and amplify the matter. so many things running thru my head.. things i should do and should take care of, things i ruin and things i can't help but spoil. i feel like i'm feeding myself with more head knowledge rather than experience God and know Him more than just a figure in the bible. the Christians in cj dun really stand up to defend what the catholics and non christians throw our way.. accusations that are generalising our faith... i feebly try to defend myself.. but well. its hard. cos some Christians even go clubbing, badmouth people, use vulgarities... its bad. but what can i do? ): sigh.
anyway. thats about all for me. i miss u all alot. then again.. lets haf a dg outing soon yeah? (: can't wait.
i am yen's fake smile.
training today was cancelled. i woke at 530 to rush to school for class morning run. it was pouring and my pe rep said it was cancelled. so ended up running in the rain with 3 guys behind a group of odac people. i think running in the rain is therapeutic. had all the 5th level hockers looking at me like i was crazy to run in the rain so early in the morning. but that kept me happy for a while. (: work's piling up. and teachers are leaving. how timely. my coach cancelled training. ): i was looking forward to it so much. sigh. in the end came home to self train.. run, do passes in the air well. being as hockey obsessed as i am.. (: couldn't stand it when my neighbour's annoying kid began throwing popcorn at me. rarr. hmm. i've changed alot. i know that. and i want to come back to God and experience Him again. cos other than this front i put on... i feel empty. and i know it is a voi only God can fill. sigh.
sorry for being so negative guys. just upset over certain things and been busy. ): hope yall are well.
ethel! of course we'll be there!! i wouldn't miss ur baptism! ((:

getting baptized next sunday.
scared. quite. actually very.
hmm invited my friends.
3 christians and one non christian.
and maybe asking my auntie and uncle to come.
you girls all coming right.

hello!
my exams end tml yup.. and i'm free on friday if we wanna meet up. can go watch movie or sth heh. :) take care everone!
-mitz

hey.yen here.im so tired.altho school ended early today considering 230 to be early.and sadly there's no hockey again.): but its ok.i feel so drained anyway.things happen and the past will remain.find it hard to let go.sigh.i wonder why i have to be so whiny.so irritatingly draggy..and the days seem to drag longer.work is piling.and i hate to sound so negative.but its getting tiring pretending.its getting harder to blaff.and i can't stand it anymore.
i dun feel rite.if God were looking down on me now.He'll be shaking His head.and i dunno why,but i am afraid,cos i seem to see everyone around me falling too.
and i am not a good example. how can i do what i should? and how come so many things are happening?i cant catch up.sigh.
Lord, catch me when i'm falling, remind me that i can cling onto You alone.

this is getting kinda boring...
nobody is blogging =((
well well...glad our WHOLE DG finally met up on saturday!!
so exciting.
haha
so its time to plan for dg outing..
this wednesday??
michelle when do you end your exams??

hey min sorry if i scared you abit...but going to poly is really an eye opener. and enjoy whatever time you ave left...go do things you never done or stuff....or even have a personal retreat.
when school starts you wont have much time re.
and yeah i cant go for sisters retreat..
only on 10 and 11
on 10 i have sch till 10am. then i'm free.
but thers gb camp going on too..
and i want to go for both...greedy uh..
well its time we all go for dg outing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wao baptism class is really interesting today..ask me if you want to know anything..

then again...i feel very good to be in church cox it feels like fantasy...and going back to school feels like reality...its really very difficult to be a light in school. like really very difficult.
even in the nights..wanting to spend time with God is so difficult..its like compromising with God. sigh.

wish i could go back to those days when i had hols..its like time never ends...its just different. =))

k guess thats enough
hope you girls have a great week ahead
thel

hey everyone! i decided to give a little update on this blog. (: so hows everyone? it's quite a short week this week eh? hehs. hmms.. well my week's been okay. well.. i went to see hockey matches at delta td.. and sadly, the 2 teams i were supporting lost.. *sigh. "even the best fall down sometimes.." oh wells.. it's 2 weeks till week 0 orientation. and the weird thing is that i cant hardly wait.. i really want school to start. and i think it's quite weird. hmms but i dont look forward to it too cos i dont know anyone there. hmms.. i hope the pple in my class are friendly. quite freaky. heh.
think i'm wasting away my life away these last few weeks of holidays.. =\ i plan to meet up with my sec school frens before school starts for all of us and it'll be so difficult to meet up. it's funny how much i'm so close to them yet so far. and it's getting even harder to invite them to church.. esp with all the troubles and distance. hmms.. but i will continue to try! (:
think all the past is getting to me again. argh. pray for me? thanks.
hmms we should have another dg outing soon!! ((: after michelle's exams of course. hehs. yups. love you gals. take good care and keep walking with Him.
love, min.

the joy of the Lord is our strength;
hey hey...Jed intro me this girl, her name is Shauna. another christian friend i found. yay...i'm so happy.
sort of confirm joining campus crusade. =))
hope that it can help me with my walk with God =))
so i'm looking forward to it.

one thing i learnt.
confess and repent.
Go back to God.
(prodigal son)

God will always be opening His arms, waiting for us to return. =))

about me

rose. min. michelle. ethel. yen. :)

objectives;
-to pray together once a month
-to share our lives with one another
-to write on our dg blog regularly
-to meet up for dg outings regularly.