hmm. argh. blog got problem. gotta try doing more stuff.. shucks.
Hey girls it’s me Ethel :) yes I’m back and all of you know it. It was a fulfilling trip seeing God's power and works bring glorified, just simply warms my heart. So many things happened during this trip. Firstly I’ve learnt and observe how God uses the people and how God opens their hearts and gives them happiness and by seeing God's grace just makes me feel that I don’t deserve it. Secondly God sent me a wonderful brother who took great care of me during this whole entire trip, really thoughtful and caring and he is Jiashu. Thirdly I’ll just change my whole mentality of missions and am ready to do more of God's work =)
Ok here it goes. Today is the first day of the trip. It’s pretty interesting as this place is very different from Singapore. God is just simply amazing, the way he works His people and seeing how the workers receive God, its just warms my heart. As the video was on, tears almost fell down as I see more people accepting the Lord. I guess it’s really an eye opener for me and I’m really glad I followed God’s will.
I’m having a wonderful dinner near the place we’re staying. The place is rather cold because we’re sitting outside! The Chinese here are quite interesting because they are like shouting for people to go to their restaurant to eat and quite aggressive when they are rejected. This just shows that God is not in their lives and there was this beggar that passed our table and tried to ask for food (our table was filled with a lot of food, so much that we all couldn’t finish but that’s not the point.) and the people there was like shoo go away but then we decided to give the beggar some food. These just shows how unchristian like these people are and it’s just very sad. Dinner was good, there was a lot of food but it wasn’t to my liking so it was quite difficult to eat. In the night we have team time, its when we gather and worship God found it very encouraging to see my team members sing to God and worship him. They are just so filled with his presence and their love for God is so strong. A lesson to remember all the glory honor and power belongs to God and to put God in front of you. By God’s grace we were safe and sound. Just before that one of my team members was stopped at the custom and something happened and in the end everything was fine. Its just God show how he can solve things and how he uses things to prove that he is just simply powerful. When I saw the Koreans, the way they sing, pray and worship God, it just warms my heart and make me feel so loved by God and it made me realized how much they love God. The love was so strong that nothing could break it. When I was there, language was a slight problem for me. I wanted to share so much but I just couldn’t say it out. And Rong Cai kept saying the go just go and share you should not use not being able to speak as an excuse. I found it quite irritating at first but I thought it made sense. And it was like my last day there so I was like ok why not so I went in to the room with my another friend and both of us share to the lady. Words just couldn’t come out of my mouth so my friend took over. And all I did was to tell the lady “ru guo ni xiang xin zu, ta hui dai gei ni ping an, ba ni de fan nao dou na zou” and I kept asking her “ni xiang xin ma, ni yuan yi jie shou zu ma” and that lady said “wo yuan yi” just these three words, made me tear. It was God doing, nothing was done by me. It was God who wanted me to hear the assurance that lady made and it was like fulfilling God’s main purpose for the trip. And the worst thing was some of the people there don’t even know about God, some even thing that just by doing good deeds on earth, it’ll just assure them a place in heaven but I told them it does not work this way and they were shocked. I think we take it for granted that people just know it in Singapore and it’s their choice to accept God a not but things don’t work this way there.
Another thing was, every morning we’ve to wake up at 5.30 to meet the Koreans at 6 to walk around the factory, something similar to the people who walked around the walls of Jericho. Its was pretty tiring and I felt that I had like frost bites in my head because my head was hurting so much that I couldn’t think and I was praying to God was to give me strength. And whenever I complained, I felt so ashamed, because whatever I done was nothing compared to how God sent his son to die on the cross for our sins, I felt that all I did was all for the glory of God.
Ok next, my brother I want to tell you girls about. Jiashu has been a great brother to me, just like how you’ve been great sisters to me. He took great care of me throughout the whole trip, be it meals, sleep, safety, whether I was wearing enough, all these is just something neither my brother nor sister would do. So I’ve said this before and I’ll say it again. God has really used Jiashu to take good care of me and just the same as how God sent you girls to care for me. It’s just simply like that nothing further then that. Its like whenever I get pissed (which was only one time and the person who pissed me off was Rong Cai) Jiashu would tell me to pray to God to give me patience and control my anger, just praying for anything. Just pray and pray and pray, he was just my constant reminder to pray and to seek God more. And it’s just the same as how you girls treat me rite. So there’s nothing special about it, so please don’t think otherwise.
Ok then next. Any mission trips in the future, I would like to go for mission trips in the future, just simply to serve God and tell other people more about God. So maybe if possible you girls can support me. I would want to raise support and let people know the areas I’m serving God in so that they can pray for me and be part of my journey in serving God.
Ok I guess that’s all I’ve to say, whenever you have a chance to serve God don’t let the opportunity slip away, pray about it and go for it, you’ll definitely not regret, just like me the country I went to is my promise land, a land that I look forward to, to share the gospel and create the awareness of God to the people.
Signing off now! :)
hey.yen here. i finally made it.:) ok. now must teach all of u. haha. but do give me feedback k if u want the wallpaper changed and stuff.
ok. i'm having a hard time with the whole slashing thing again. as ive told u all. well, i just kinda think that im allowed to think of it.. but just not do anything about it. i want myself to be joyful in all circumstances but i know how hard it is and how easy it seems for me to just fake it all and act like some chesire cat, always smiling and pretending that i'm not affected by anything at all. but the problem is that i'm super sensitive to everything nowadays and i feel that i'm the one paranoid. so well, maybe God will rule in my life if i allow Him too. well, continue praying for me. thanks. i really liked our sharing on saturday, wared my heart and made me love u guys even more. :) so thats all for me..