complicated;-
okaay. the sem exams are over and somehow it didnt occur to me that i should post here. anyway, i'm kind of living a day by itself, so fraked out cos the results are out real soon. well.. i'm lyk so sure that i've got supp papers to take..and i dont really wanna talk about it.
hmm..actually came here to post cos i had a realiztion. i was reading that discipleship book phyllis recommended me and i realized that i dont love enough. the book said smething about one on one discipling should be honest and simple. and then i realized, that throughout the whole time i've communicated with liyuan, i havent exactly been totally honest. it seems that somehow a part of me is always blocked out from people around me. even my close frens in poly.. i mean yeah they do know about my life but vaguely, only a few people totally know. hmms, maybe its some selective thing. but oh well.. dont know.
so i came to the conclusion that i'm not worthy to be someone whom she looks up to. anyway, right now i feel that cos of exams she's gonna drift and i feel tt i cant do anything about it. i mean yeah i do worry a lot about it, was even happy that going to chalet got it off my mind for a while but i realize how real this is, if i lose this thing with her, that's it. dont know why but it feels impt that i maintain a genuine friendship with her. but how? how to tell her she's wrong? i mean i just told her some of my opinions about what she's doing and she's going abit mad alr. what cani do? oh well. leave it to God.
anyway..going for ccc chalet this week (: hope to have fun ha. seeya all soon. love you all.
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hey girls, thanks for being there for me. to hear me moan and groan about everything and anything =) i just love you girls so much!!!!!
thel
i'm backkkk..
saw my results a while ago.
PRINCIPLES OF ACCOUNTING C+
MICROECONOMICS C
STATISTICAL METHODS FOR BUSINESS B+
PRINCIPLES OF MARKETING C
EFFECTIVE WRITING SKILLS B
BUSINESS SOFTWARE APPLICATIONS B
yupyup
for first sem still ok la.
really hope to see you girls.
been dreaming of you all lately =))
loving you all always, ethel