hmm. hey. yen here. u all must be wondering what i feel after not getting into my "dream" school.. well. i was working when i got the results that i got posted to cjc... and yeah. i cried awhile on the spot. thank goodness i was only pouring meds and not doing much. i recovered before anyone noticed, so its alright. i felt sad. but after a while, i realised that i should thank God. suddenly it is clear that it wasn't only cos acjc had a total of 950 students that got selected and that one of them wasn't me, but really it was God's will. i have been struggling to accept it. i mean, all along when i was in fairfield i had a clear vision that i was heading to acjc and i worked towards it.. but God has other plans. i mean when andrew was teaching sunday school, he said that you may be firm in something but it may not be the right thing.. and i did qt on faith. that it is not just a vague belief but it centers on God who we can see and experience thru creation, the bible and ultimately in Christ. yeah and i'm sure i'll grow to like cjc, not only cos i have to but cos i shld show love to everyone. today i went for orientation. i didn't know anyone. and it felt weird cos u all know that i'm notthe socialble type... so it took lots of opening up. but yeah. it was funny, cos they pray and do the cross thing. but ultimately, tho i feel abit out... i've made frens. i thot of appealing after school, cos i even asked my teacher to write a recommendation letter. but maybe its God's will...cos my teacher couldn't get it done-the system broke down in fairfield- and yonghan told me that over 1000 people are trying to appeal. i should just stay where i am and thank God for bringing me there and seek His plan for placing me there. my parents looked totally dissappointed, so was my brother, but they said that they're ok with it and my dad added that he wanted me to save some catholics. (heh) oh well. so yeah. that's all.. gonna miss work? but guess it doesn't matter when u realise God's plan. look at corlissa's blog.. i'm so happy for her. (: ethel, this blog wont die, unless we let it..so lets keep it updated! (: haha. hope u all are alright. meet for dg outing soon? (: